I heard the MCA Zine Fair had opened applications for this year, so I started going through old photos and projects to see what I might include. For such a long time I really wanted to create t-shirt label, but even after the first few months, it felt like work and didn't feel fun or as natural in the way my other projects came together.
Looking back, it's because other people were pushing me to do it and I had somewhat fallen out of love with my own work or side projects. I'd felt embarrassed with the results and I had felt that I wasted everyone's time, including my own.
But upon revisiting the photos today...I'm not sure why I hated the result so much? Perhaps I was drained after the launch? Disappointed that it didn't really grow or feel as authentic as the way my art is usually released?
When I look at the photos now, I can find things I like. The in between moments when I was creating art and having fun with it. I didn't really spend much money on the projects...and in some ways that informed the confidence in my own label. People couldn't even buy them because I didn't think we'd sell any.
I'm going to revisit selling art again but do it in my own way with zero pressure.
A continuation in discovering my own voice visually...
When I think about visuals and how they speak to me, after a certain point, literal imagery starts to mean less to me than stumbling upon a new abstract form/shape or a combination of colours.
Similarly to using and old lo-fi sampler (like a Roland SP-404), taking little pieces of photography from my everyday life and then distorting and corrupting it gives me pleasure. In this way I can take existing memories and turn them into something new whilst having the original memory/images as something that only I know of.
I started using the pseudonym Prince of Glitch years ago as a username but now it's a bit of a reminder of youth/early internet culture. I thought that idea of being the 'Prince of Mistakes' was funny - similar to the Emperor's new clothes tale.
I never thought I would enjoy abstract art, let along prefer to both consume and create it, but I find myself getting more out of finding new ideas in a wall of colours textures than a perfect photo or design.